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Blogs > 80sbaby71 > Life in the Nursery~

Wondering  

80sbaby71 52F
7366 posts
5/30/2009 10:42 pm
Wondering

As I sit here at the computer, I can't help but wonder. Wonder about what? Well that is the problem. I spend too much time wondering and worrying about what others think that I have forgotten to think by myself and to even remember who I am.

I mean in today's age too many factors are weighed. How a person dresses. Who you are friends with. How much a person weighs. Way too many issues.

I am now at that point where I have let some people control my life. And by the word control I mean by words, actions, and even the way they view me....or at least the way I see them viewing me.

I have spent too much time worrying. Who likes me or doesn't like me. Who thinks I am pretty or not. Who thinks I weigh too much or not. Who thinks I am a snob or too quiet. I mean these things are things that may not matter much to some but sometimes they do matter to others.

I have let one person (well actually alot) control my life for a very long time. This person has never actually said anything mean to me personally, but will "hint" at things. "Wow you have lost weight, or maybe it just seems that way since I have lost more weight lately." "I really like your hair, did you notice the new highlights in mine?" "So how goes the love life? I can't seem to find time from one guy hitting on me to the next." I have decide that the time has come for me to be me.

I AM TAKING MY LIFE BACK!

I am me. I am proud of me. Yes I am a BBW. But that is fine by me. No my hair is not always perfect, but neither am I. No my clothes are not designer names.....but so what. I am who I am. That is it. You either like me or you don't. But do not judge me without taking the time to get to know me.

GUYS: I am a person. I do not PUT OUT. I want to make love. I want to be held. I want to be touched. I want you to talk to me. I want you to be my friend. IF this is not something that you can do, ok. But please do not ask me to change just to make YOU happy. My happiness will ALWAYS come first.

LADIES: I am me. I am not trying to STEAL your man. I want my OWN man. I do not contact your man, they contact me. If you read my profile , you will see I have on there my intentions. I do not NEED your critisim.

I GUESS THE "MORAL" OF THIS BLOG IS : IF YOU CAN'T SAY SOMETHING NICE TO ME THAN PLEASE DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL!

MUCH LOVE TO ALL, AND TO ALL A GOOD LIFE!

The one and only 80sbaby!
AKA_Strawberry 65F
58 posts
5/31/2009 6:58 am

 Way to go girl. That's all any of us can do is be who we are.
If you make changes in your life, they should be for you.
Hope you find what you are looking for.


nutitan1966 57M
39 posts
5/31/2009 8:13 am

 I agree with you. We all have to be ourselves and if somebody doesnt like us that way than we just have to find people who do.


PonyGirl1965 58F
22090 posts
5/31/2009 2:45 pm

 Baby, I think I have seen the real you and she is a wonderful, loving person. I am so glad you are going to focus more on yourself. You deserve it!

And being the one and only 80's baby is awesome. You are unique and very special! Trust me, being unique is fun! From one unique woman to another, you rock Baby!!

Love You!! Pony


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