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Final Blog  

Crzygryl 58F
162 posts
9/15/2018 9:58 pm
Final Blog
Well I have really enjoyed the fact that someone out there had read and could relate to my poetic words, and when I would see multiple comments/feedback...I started to feel like a belonged somewhere instead of me just blowing around in the clouds, tethered but fighting it, perfectly happy to catch a strong wind and be blown into the atmosphere, away from my tether. Floating up, up, up!!! Until the earth disappears and I am one with the stars. And for a very brief moment, strikingly close to the moment I realize my true fate and the panic sets in, I find I am at peace with myself, with my accomplishments, with my failures, and with my faith. The warming sensation of peace enveloping your whole essence. Then comes the anxiety, the loss of control, regret, and the plea to no one... to Wake me! Wake me, please!!! I don't want this to be my end....PPPLLEEASE!!!!

That is how my life has been, a series of events that left me floundering for years as I figured out how to navigate in a world that doesn't know what to do with a woman like me...too loud...too strong...too smart (actual comment from
ex-boyfriends friend..."you really need to dumb it down a little) too deep, too pretty, to honest, to sexual....BELIEVE ME...I have heard it all. And just like a relationship that runs its coarse I believe my time here on this blog has run its coarse, interest lost, no more love for the little girl lost (me silly).

I did make a calendar that I sell on deviant art as well as some canvas renderings and other fodder, in the hopes that my art can help keep us afloat.

I am also submitting a book by tomorrow night to Amazon kindle, a first of many fears I am attempting to conquer. And it no longer matters to me if I find my Kool Kat. I have my priorities, like getting myself and my sons out of the cocoon of poverty, That's what the rabbit was invented for right, and there's still my 24 speed Mr Shower head who I would marry if it had a job...hahahahaha!

Thanks to all of you who indulged me and kept from happening something that I had feared for years...that I would die, with all my poems in a box under my bed... unread.

Have a beautiful life! Peace!
CrzyGryl

CrzyGryl
mc_justmc 63M

9/16/2018 8:05 am

 It's been good reading you, maybe you'll come back?


pureromnce 58M
324 posts
9/17/2018 11:26 am

 I’ve been slowly working my way back through your blog, as I only recently stumbled across it. I’m sorry to see you go; your wit and eloquence stands out from the crowd.

Good luck, and never settle for anyone intimidated by your wonderful attributes. If someone told me I needed to “dumb it down,” I’d reply by saying I don’t have time for people that can’t keep up.

Thanks for the thought-provoking blog posts!


Crzygryl replies on 10/16/2018 9:16 am:
Your comment has renewed my sense of purpose. Writing is my greatest passion coming second only to motherhood in which I have been incredibly successful. Look for my book coming soon to Kindle called "The Ramblings of a Madwoman". I greatly appreciate your interest in my writing, thank you for indulging me.

marriedcretin 54M
Ask me for a photo
1324 posts
9/21/2018 7:30 pm

 I liked your poems even if I didn't always understand them.

Is it a book of poems on kindle?


Crzygryl replies on 10/16/2018 9:10 am:
I was sidetracked but yes, I am in the final editing process of submitting a book of poetry to Kindle...Look for "The Ramblings of a Madwoman" not sure of my final pen name but that title should be very unique and easy to find. Thanks for your interest in my crazybrain.

Crzygryl 58F
46 posts
10/16/2018 9:06 am

 Sometimes what rolls off my mind onto the page is hard to understand but it always makes sense to me. I am complex and deeper than a lot of people, which is not necessarily a bad thing, but it sure acts as a barrier and keeps lots of men away. I know I am a little crazy, but it sure beats the mundane, the normal, the uneventful, and gives the introverts something to talk about...LOL.
CrzyGryl


Crzygryl 58F
46 posts
10/16/2018 9:18 am

 I have found writing to be a drug I cannot put down. Sharing my soul is highly addictive for me, I am glad you enjoy my stuff, thank you.
CrzyGryl


oldfarmer281 66M
2 posts
8/2/2019 11:31 am

 All I can find in the Kindle store close to what you said to look for is a book titled Ramblings of a Mad Woman: Effervescence from the Soul by a woman named Melva that the author page says grew up in Arizona in the 1940's and 50's. I don't think that is your work. Did you ever submit your work?


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