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Blogs > hereforyou6217 > A Charming Wreck

On the eve  

hereforyou6217 50M
176 posts
7/19/2007 6:32 pm

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On the eve

Tomorrow I turn 34. It's an altogether uneventful year-- no turning over of the odometer, no dreaded 0 at the end of the number. Not even a five to make it seem like it's some sort of round number. Just 34. It's divisible by itself, 2, and 17. That's about it. Completely unremarkable.

And yet, for some reason, I can't get it out of my head this year. I'm thinking a lot about what it means to move forward a year. What things I could change, and what things I should carry forward with me. How I'm different, and how I'm still the same.

I'm lucky. I know that. The last twelve months have added some incredible people to my life. You know who you are. Some of you are reading this. Some of you are reading this and I don't know that you are. (One of you I haven't talked to in a while, and I'm hoping you're reading this, if only so I can say happy birthday to YOU today.) People have left my life. There have been happy times and sad times, there's been elation and some tears, and not a small amount of consternation.

Maybe that's it. Maybe it's because it's been such an emotionally intense year for me. I've run the gamut this year-- job issues, family health issues, friend issues, "friend" issues, financial issues, losing people, gaining people, having sex with people, not having sex with people, DECIDEDLY not having sex with people anymore, almost having to go to sandy places that are very hot, watching dear friends go to said sandy places, having to deal with a DUI in the family...

Big year.

And now I'm starting a new one. An unremarkable one. God willing, a quiet one.

I have you people. I know I don't show you enough love, I know I neglect you and that you think maybe I'm lying in a ditch by the side of the road somewhere, and that's why I haven't posted (What? That's what I think when YOU don't post!). But you all are important to me, and you make up a part of who I am now. Some of you I talk to every day. Some of you I've never talked to in my life-- though I'd love to talk to every one of you sometime.

Yet again, I've lost my way. Seems to be a bit of a theme lately. Really, I'm happier than I seem right now. I have friends, I have my health, I'm not in financial dire straits, I'm not in trouble at work anymore. I just want this to be a quieter year.

There's a saying--I think it's Chinese-- "May you live in interesting times."

Oh, wait. I forgot. It's not a saying, it's a curse.

But-- and I want to make this very clear-- the whole sex thing can stay. I'm liking that part of it. Heh.

rm_DaphneR 65F
8019 posts
7/19/2007 10:33 pm

 34 huh? Another year and you'll be within my age range.

Happy Birthday!
Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.


hereforyou6217 replies on 7/20/2007 4:31 am:
*looks at watch, taps foot...*

God, now I wish this year would go faster!

Thank you.

rm_1hotwahine 70F
21089 posts
7/20/2007 10:44 am

 DECIDEDLY not having sex with people anymore

As opposed to...?



HBD, MDF
Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


hereforyou6217 replies on 7/20/2007 1:12 pm:
Well, the DECIDEDLY refers to the fact that a few of those things were shut down pretty emphatically.

That was just to differentiate it from the "simply not having sex with people" which is par for the course around here. Heh.

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