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Just to Touch You
Just to Touch You I was rummaging through a kitchen drawer last Saturday, looking for a pair of scissors, when I came across this hand written, faded letter, in an envelope, addressed to me. It was from Dianne - an ex girlfriend, from long ago. I opened it, sat down and began to read... Dear Paul, I woke up in the middle of the night and reached across the bed, just to touch you - but you weren't there. My pillows still smell like you, and I. am already sorry for saying what I said to you. But I really don't understand how you can be such an asshole sometimes. You play this game with my heart and you think you can get away with it because of your cute ass and those fucking eyes of yours. You know you can hypnotize me with the words you say and how you say them, and you do that on purpose. There's a name, a word , for a man like you. It describes who you are and how you selfishly, seduce and treat women. I just can't think of that name right now, but YOU know it! I said to you, that I could change, so just give me time. Give me a chance. You know we're good together. We are fucking good together and yet you treat US, as if it's just a sex thing. It's more than that. Much more ! If what you said to me last night is true and if that's the way you feel - then I don't want to see you again. And that's MY truth ! You know I love you Paul. You know we could make this work ! Can't we try? Love Dianne I held that scrawled, rambling, repetitive note in my hand - and paused. Dianne's seething anger toward me, was obvious. She likely, might have been hammered, when she wrote it. I mean honestly... I could not have been, sooo horrible, that she would call me a lothario - that name she was searching for. Nor was I as shallow, as she implied I was... She must have been confused... I was in my mid twenties when I met her, and I recall that Dianne and I were only together for about a year. Aside from the sex - I didn't think we had that much, going for us. I was never with her again, after the night she wrote me that letter. And I only saw her, one other time, in my life. She was in a packed, smoky and sweaty night club, with her new boyfriend. They were crammed shoulder to shoulder, sharing a wobbly, grimy little table, with a half dozen people. I was with a couple of my friends - and we were leaving that dive . The music was loud, Dianne and I made eye contact, smiled meekly at each other and tried to say hello. I felt sorry for her. She didn't look, particularly happy. Her sullen eyes followed me as I passed. I looked at the letter, I still held in my hands. I folded it up into the envelope, put it in the drawer and pushed the drawer shut - then sat there for a few seconds more. Finally, I shook my head, got up from the chair, and continued my search... for those elusive scissors. © October 2018 Paul P. ............................................................... So... Have you ever been in a relationship where you saw things one way and your lover, saw things, in a completely different way ? Do ever think about an 'ex' of yours and wonder what might have been, or what happened to them? BTW... Lothario is a nefarious character in the 1605 novel - 'Don Quixote'. Another word to describe him would have been - womanizer .. . Oh, and the scissors were found where I left them last time I used them - right on my office desk. . . ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O |
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I didn't receive too many letters from girls. I had a few birthday cards and such... But I kept that note... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I've run into a few girls who I dated. One, some 20 years later. She was married with kids and we shared a few laughs. She had matured into a fine looking, intelligent woman! But that's a story for another blog post. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I think everyone has haven't heard but it is ok to disagree ?
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I think everyone has haven't heard but it is ok to disagree ? ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Have I ever ...? Do I ever ...? *sigh* yes Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation bangs on the door forever!
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Have I ever ...? Do I ever ...? *sigh* yes ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Wow. I guess it's a good thing that you and your ex are talking - at least about your kids and related issues. Boy that might bug me if I saw all my ex's in this city on a regular y. Lol... Thankfully it's too big (the city I meant)! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I lived with a girl when I was in my 20s, she constantly fucked around behind my back, but never saw it that way. I even offered her an open relationship to make room for her panty dropping ways, but she would always say she was committed to me. Other than that, we were great together, the sex was unbelievable, probably due to all of her "practice". We eventually broke up over that, but I did find her about 5 yrs ago in a small town in Florida and sent her a letter asking how she was. I received a letter back a few weeks later. She was still in love with me, ready to leave her live-in-boyfriend of 5 yrs, and did I know how much a bus ticket to San Antonio was. Apparently, she's still a fuck-around-girl and now she's added some crazy to her personality. I shut down the conversation real quick. You should give Dianne a call, and ask how is she doing. Careful, bitches be crazy.
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i don't think so, sure I have found memories of relations past but for the most part i have always moved on...I hope you have a great day..
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The 'Remeber When' pathway is a painful one, for sure! Eee ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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i don't think so, sure I have found memories of relations past but for the most part i have always moved on...I hope you have a great day.. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Why did you re-fold the letter and put it back in the drawer and not just throw it out???
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a man who behaves selfishly and irresponsibly in his sexual relationships with women. is the meaning of ..Lothario ..
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Why did you re-fold the letter and put it back in the drawer and not just throw it out??? ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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a man who behaves selfishly and irresponsibly in his sexual relationships with women. is the meaning of ..Lothario .. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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And it sounds to me like you're having a great time here... I can see your smile from here! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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sTILL. NO point in keeping it.
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you!
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sTILL. NO point in keeping it. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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This cuts me up- snork-scissors- shoulda cut up the letter or better yet- framed it and hung it up as a reminder Yes, once in a while I am reminded of someone when he sends me a drunken email, which I ignore. Snuck off back to CA and never told me he was going ( email from the road) back to his swinger lady from 20+years ago. It didnt work out and I think he's lost in California gold { see pic} (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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This cuts me up- snork-scissors- shoulda cut up the letter or better yet- framed it and hung it up as a reminder Yes, once in a while I am reminded of someone when he sends me a drunken email, which I ignore. Snuck off back to CA and never told me he was going ( email from the road) back to his swinger lady from 20+years ago. It didnt work out and I think he's lost in California gold { see pic} .... Drunken emails and phone calls.. Ahh... Love! Yes.. But it's exquisite pain is something we all still strive to breath.... over and over again.. (even if we won't admit it). Thanks again for the motivation! True! ❤️😉👍😊 You and I both know, this one is yours... Lol... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I'm happy to make you smile. Rest assured, my only reason for being here is to make people smile. It's a goal of mine - 'here and everywhere I walk. Glad to be a part of your smile my dear! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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