not so much with the blogging
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Posted:Apr 18, 2010 11:04 am
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I haven't been so much with the blogging lately, which was brought to my attention by someone who wrote and said he read my blogs and I realized I had no idea the last thing I wrote there.
The same person cancelled a meetup with me today because he said I'm not the kind of person he's looking for, after reading my blogs and my profile again. It's funny, I'd just changed my profile not long ago, and I'd decided I wasn't attracting the right sort of men and decided to change it back (which I have done), and before I changed it, he cancelled our lunch. Bummer. 
So I came to read what my blogs said, and I saw that they're kind of obnoxious, really. Kind of "You know you want me, but you can't have me" and annoying. So I've been doing some editing there too.
I don't expect to post more blog entries, though. I do Twitter now. I'm @tuneinturnon123 on there.
Announcing that here is a dilemma, because I want to feel free to say what I like, but I don't want to hurt someone's feelings. If I meet with someone and it doesn't go well, I'll tweet about it, but if he's found my Twitter from this post, he'll read about it.
So I guess this is my way of apologizing in advance but I'm going to call 'em like I see 'em on Twitter and if we've met up, there's a chance you might read things about yourself that you're unhappy about.
I am sorry. Sometimes I can't say in person that it's not going to work out because you're a nice person but it just didn't work for me. You might find out in email or Twitter. That's the way it goes.
EDIT: As a bit of an update, I do still have phone sex with Phone Sex Guy - because it's fucking HOT, I do still occasionally see Teacher though not very often since I live across town now, Boy Toy was the disrespectful jackass I couldn't take any more of so he was sent packing for good and all last month (he's still emailing me and calling me, I just don't answer) and other than them anyone else I might've been seeing in April 2009 when I last blogged is gone. Nobody has come and stayed for good, sadly.
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buh-bye
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Posted:Apr 24, 2009 5:49 pm
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I have to say goodbye to one of my favorite boys/toys. It makes me sad, because he's been really fun. But he has been overstepping the line and showing disrespect for my boundaries for a while and today was the last straw.
He wanted to come over, to talk. I said I was busy until a certain time and made it clear that "busy" meant "fucking someone else" but said we could talk after that.
Despite being told that a number of times, he just showed up when he wanted to. First, he called - and I didn't answer the phone, because I was busy in bed with my other friend. Then he just showed up and knocked on the door, which I didn't answer because I was busy in bed with my other friend.
Then when I poked my head out to ask what the fuck he was doing on my porch, he said "I called" and I said "yes, and I didn't answer, because I was busy, like I told you I would be." After a few more comments back and forth, he realized that I still had a man in my bedroom who I had recently been fucking. Then he left and, despite interrupting my afternoon with someone else, he went home.
I was ENRAGED. I was FURIOUS. I still am very angry. I explained the situation on another blog of mine and said "I don't get it! How can he be that stupid?" and my friends said "he probably did it on purpose, not out of stupidity. At the very least he selectively read your messages and chose to ignore whatever he didn't want to know about."
This isn't the first time he's behaved like this, but things have been escalating to this point. I refuse to associate with someone who's going to disrespect me and my boundaries and limits this much.
So buh-bye, my boy, my toy. You're history.
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where to meet
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Posted:Mar 25, 2009 4:13 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2010 11:07 am
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Let's say you and I decide to meet.
My first rule is that we have to meet somewhere in public. If I'm feeling witty, I'll say it's so you have witnesses in case I turn out to be an axe murderer, but of course I know it's so I will have witnesses in case you turn out to be an axe murderer.
I won't host, because you're a total stranger and I don't really want you to know where I live. Personal security. Can't have some crazy guy I only saw once stalking my house.
I'd prefer to meet somewhere neither of us have the advantage, if you will. I can't pay for a hotel, though, because I'm unemployed. I know that's unfair, but that's the way it goes. Right now, I'm thinking about where to meet if you can't afford a hotel. Economy is bad. You might be unemployed too.
Assuming you can host, I'd agree to go to your place. But if I'm really worried that you might end up being an axe murderer, I'm thinking I'd be safer in my OWN apartment. My is here, & I have an upstairs neighbor who's paranoid so if she heard screams, after getting over being terrified, she'd call the police.
If I agree to your place, I don't know if any of those things would be true. You could live out in the middle of nowhere with a dungeon where you torture people in the basement, for all I know.
So what usually happens if you can't host & can't afford a hotel is that I say "gee, that's too bad, it would've been nice to meet you." Because I can't risk having you over to my place if I've never met you.
I really hate having to tell promising friends/lovers that we can't meet because of that.
Any ideas for what a good alternative would be?
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thanks for the fun!
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Posted:Nov 2, 2008 6:16 pm
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Just wanted to say thanks very much for the fun to my new friend pit_fun who I met up with last night and my already-friend hellothere4u! Thanks for excellent times! I'd love to do it again.
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time to start talking about some AFFers
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Posted:Nov 1, 2008 4:03 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2010 11:07 am
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this is the part you've all been waiting for, eh? Yes, I have actually met guys from here and had sex with nearly all of them.
I don't, however, want them to curse me, so for these two at least (who I don't think are members anymore anyway), I'm not going to call them by their usernames. One I don't even remember.
Met a man in April who's into Tantric Sex. I've been hooked into stuff like that for a while, although I've never tried it, so even though he's older than me and not really cute or anything, it seemed like it could be fun to give it a try. He's a very interesting person and we talked, about that and other things, for maybe 5 hours yesterday. We were going to get together today, but he had to reschedule for Friday. So I got up this morning thinking I was going to have 5 or 6 hours of mind-blowing sex and instead got none. It was just me and my hand trying to ease the ache earlier.
LATER THAT SAME WEEK... I did get together with JF for an afternoon of fun. It was... not spectacular. It didn't seem like it was that great for either one of us, and it certainly wasn't the hours he'd promised me. I was really disappointed. I was willing to give it another chance, but he told me he was doing something that would keep him away from the computer for a couple of weeks, and I never heard from him again. That's not entirely true. Recently 2 messages from him showed up in my Bulk email box. I tried to drop him a line to let him know that but by then the account was gone.
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sigh
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Posted:Oct 27, 2008 6:30 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2010 11:07 am
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Had amazing sex for a good long while tonight, none of this "done in 10 minutes" shit, and then got to nap all snuggled up. Well, he fell asleep, as y'all do, but I just went with it. Sometimes I worried about what would happen when he woke up and found out how late it was, but I figured he's a grown man, he can take care of himself, and if he wakes up too late to do his other stuff, that's his own damn fault.
The unfortunately thing is, that's twice in two days I've had great sex (or almost sex) and not gotten off. My guy tonight is totally capable, we just got ... sidetracked. It was soooo worth it. 
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afternoon delight
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Posted:Oct 26, 2008 6:49 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2010 11:08 am
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I have to tell you about my day.
Teacher came over to help me with a few chores. Which really meant he helped with one chore, we flirted a bit, and before I knew it my hands were handcuffed behind my back. I gotta say, silk neckties are MUCH more comfortable than handcuffs; when I was meant to lay down on my back, it was impossible to get in a position that wasn't very painful because of the way the handcuffs were on.
So, handcuffed. not too much later, gagged. not too much after that, blindfolded. That's a bummer, because I like to see, especially because his cock is absolutely ENORMOUS, but there's something very exciting about being blindfolded, too.
If he could do whatever he wanted, he would also do breath play, but the last time he tried that, I told him to cut that shit out and undid all my bindings and got up and left. So I told him he could do what he wants as long as he doesn't try to cut off my breathing. It's not strictly true, there are other things I won't stand for like things that hurt (nipple clamps come to mind). The handcuffs hurt but that's not what I mean, I mean pinching or spanking and things like that.
He still denied me the thing I most wanted though - I didn't get to fuck him. I didn't get to settle my hot wet cunt on top of his enormous cock, not even for a moment. That was really disappointing. It feels so fucking good. I did get to give him head, though, which is challenging since he's so damned big, but he was very complimentary which is always nice.
I'm always hearing how I give great head; I've tried to learn as much as I can so it's good for my partner AND me. And he didn't fuck me with a dildo either, although he did want to watch me get myself off with a vibe. I didn't get there before he got off, though, so I didn't get off. That's my least favorite thing about seeing him - I don't always get off. Damn, now I'm horny. I need to go do something about that.
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a quickie
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Posted:Oct 26, 2008 11:09 am
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2010 11:08 am
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I texted Teacher (my 'special BDSM friend') asking him a random question and next thing I know he's calling and talking to me as if I asked him to come over. I said I hadn't thought of him coming over but of course he was welcome to do that if he wanted to, I'll be home for an hour or so. I hear him explaining to his wife that he has to come over and help me out with a couple things, telling her exactly what. First I thought "are you nuts? why are you telling her that? that sounds like the flimsiest excuse in the universe!" but hey, if she doesn't buy it, he's the one who's going to catch hell for it, not me. So now he has spousal permission to be here more than, like, the 5 minutes the thing I asked him about will take. Soon as I heard him saying he had to come over, I started to get wet. I haven't gotten to see him in ages, let alone one on one. Now I'm so fucking horny. I better go wash off my sex toys!
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talking with my Phone Sex Guy
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Posted:Oct 24, 2008 10:19 pm
Last Updated:Oct 25, 2008 11:06 am
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PSG, my phone sex partner, is on my mind tonight.
He started as an acquaintance. Even the first time after we had phone sex, I wasn't sure we were anything more than acquaintances. I've gone through short periods where I have a huge crush on him and want to be able to at least sleep with him in person and not be frustrated by the limits of phone sex, but I'm trying to treat this like every other NSA sexual relationship I have, despite its intensity. Because of the intensity, though, I do crave the interaction and connection, I want to do it again. Not too often, I don't want it to lose its appeal by becoming commonplace. Yet, our phone sex has started having no limits at all.
He's trying to keep me distant- since neither of us want a romance, so maybe he's safeguarding against that. A lot goes unasked in my relationship with him. After our last session, which went WAY beyond where my fantasies normally stop, I made it a point to tell him (the next day, because I didn't want to wreck the mood) that I've never even fantasized about those things and I didn't think they'd appeal to me at all but having these things presented in the imaginary setting made quite an impression on me.
One of the coolest things about these conversations is that we trade off who's in charge. Sometimes he asks me what I want and what I'm feeling, but in the scenarios where he puts me in charge or he intentionally takes a submissive role, I really try to step up to the plate. I'm not experienced with phone sex and I didn't want to sound like a broken record. So I looked up words to try to come up with other things to say that might be appropriate. (Any vocab suggestions are most welcome, btw.)
At one point, he decided he couldn't keep doing this. We are in the same circle of friends in real life, even though I met him online. He said he couldn't get his head around being friends with me and having hot phone sex and he kept worrying that I'd tell all his friends about it. I said he might tell all my friends about it and that would be worse for me than for him. Anyway, he said 'if you had to pick between being friends or hot phone sex, you'd pick friends, right?' I thought 'no.' But then I said 'well I can get phone sex anywhere so sure, friends are harder to come by.' So I said ok, LJBF, but you don't get to play me. You decide not to do this any more we are not doing this any more, period. You don't get to call me up when you feel horny and say you want some. He agreed.
Couple weeks later he said he'd been thinking about it and figured out a way he could think about it that made sense to him. My reaction was, as one guy I told about it said, "oh look. you have a hard on. good for you." I said 'I seem to remember we had this big conversation, I think you were there...' and gave him some shit about it. But since I wasn't the one who wanted to stop the calls in the first place, I said sure, let's do this again. The last couple times we talked, he was asking me if I really wanted him and if I'd been jonesing for him. I had to decide between telling the truth or saying what his ego wanted me to say. He told me to tell the truth, so I did, which was that I don't sit around thinking about this stuff most of the time. I think now I should've said yes, I'd been wanting him, I'd been fantasizing about him. We haven't talked often since then.
Because I was writing this and thinking about him, I IM'd him to see what he was up to being online at like 1:30 AM. He said not much and I suggested we have a phone chat. He said "lonely?" He's been asking that lately, the last couple times we talked on the phone. I told him no, I'm not contacting him because I'm lonely, I'm contacting him because I realized that while I CAN get phone sex pretty much anywhere, for free, most phone sex is not at all like the phone sex he and I have. Usually it's very physical - breasts and pussy and cock and ass and mouth. With him it's more like a story and he hardly ever talks about the body specifics, more about the story. I get my turn then he gets his turn, everybody gets off. These calls usually take an hour or so, and it's not like we spend 80% of the time trying to get me off and 20% trying to get him off, it's more of an even split.
I'm kind of hoping that letting him know as often as I can that he's really really fantastic at that will encourage him to keep calling or wanting to do this with me. I'm not lonely, and I have lovers, all of them guys I met on Local Adult Companion. I'm not looking for a "relationship" with him - neither of us want that. But I'll take what I can get. I keep trying to tell myself I can hook up with someone a lot better than him - which I can. But I can't tell myself that he's irreplaceable. Because he's not. It'd be very difficult to replace him with anyone remotely similar.
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let's see how this works
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Posted:Oct 23, 2008 6:52 pm
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First, your evening's entertainment - I met with the Boy Toy again. The sex was fantastic, of course, since it's always fantastic. It was fairly acrobatic too, compared to how sex in a bed normally is - I was bent over in half, on his lap with my ass against him and him inside me, and then there's the classic "my hands against the wall while he's behind me," which is always fun. Only thing is we don't know when we're going to be able to meet again.
He tried to cancel on me, saying he was too hungover and too tired, and I was baffled. What guy turns down sex because he's too tired? Doesn't sex trump . . . everything??? Unless you're really sick and projectile vomiting? So that got me annoyed and thinking once more "he's SO not worth this" and "why did I come all the way over to this side of town if I'm not going to get laid? Jerk." But then he let me know he felt better, still tired but probably not up for a very long session, and I thought "thank goodness".
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I heard this on a podcast and it is totally true. 3 things to say to a woman if you want to make her like you. Say any of them with a flirty/sexy voice.
1. Are you flirting with me?
2. You can't have me.
3. I have to go now.
You can say #1 after pretty much any comment she makes. If it was a compliment OR an insult, you can distinguish yourself from other guys by asking her that, because she's really flirting and she knows it. You're not acting like other guys by actively trying to flirt with her by asking if she's flirting with you. She'll try to argue with you that she isn't flirting, in which case you can still jokingly maintain that she is, or she'll agree that she is and keep going. Either way, you win! Worst that can happen is she'll walk away from you. Oh well.
If you want to download the podcast from iTunes - it's called "10 minute dating" and I think it's great.
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last week
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Posted:Oct 17, 2008 7:57 pm
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So where should I start? Let's start with last Wednesday. I've been busy since then.
Thursday night:
First, I met up with the Boy Toy. These last 2 times have been the first he's been able to get me off going down on me, which ROCKS (usually we use toys). we tried at least one position that was new to both of us - that surprised me because I thought he was really experienced based on his talent. I didn't think there were any positions he hadn't tried. The look on his face after he got off, he just had this amazed happy look on his face, eyes wide and bright, big smile... I LOVE that expression! (Should mention that Boy Toy and I are fluid-bonded. We're close like that. Doesn't mean I don't think he's lying when he says he isn't sleeping with anyone else - it's man's nature, even though he hears about the other guys I'm with. But he's the only one I have 'naked' sex with.)
Second, PSG called me later that night for phone sex. We've never had sex in person, we never talk on the phone when we aren't having phone sex, and we only rarely chat on IM where it doesn't lead to phone sex. We have cyber-foreplay and then we talk on the phone.
We have met only once in person. He rarely talks to me about his real life (except when he & his girlfriend broke up, and then I crushed on him HARD).
The phone sex is something totally separate from our real lives. It's a sort of vacation from reality, definitely adult playtime. It started because he was horny or needy and I was around and amenable. We got that clear the next day when we talked about it on IM. I told him that's what I thought was going on and I was cool with that, and he said yeah, he didn't want to SAY to me that I just happened to be handy, but I said not to worry, I get it. I try not to think I'm a bigger part of his life than just that.
It's not a regular thing at all. We can go weeks without it. I'm not sure we've ever done it as often as twice in a week. We have been very clear it is NSA and separated from the rest of our lives. The conversations go some very strange sensual places, things I would never have even thought to fantasize about, but they can get intense.
Even though it's no-strings attached and either of us could quit at any time (yeah, sure), these shared intense experiences bring us together by their very nature. Of course we're closer than we were when we were near strangers - we've shared fantasies and at least heard one another orgasm, even though we haven't done it in the same place, if not made one another orgasm.
It reminds me of my experiences with the Teacher. We were determined not to get emotionally attached, but when you have these intense shared experiences which at least sometimes include orgasm, it's tough not to get attached. These times are more than just regular sex. I have no trouble sleeping with someone and never getting emotional or attached, even if the sex is the best ever. I've done it a ton of times, more than I can count. But when you get into bondage, dominance and submission like I do with Teacher, or the wild intense fantasies like I do with PSG, there's more involvement than just sex. You have to get a little emotionally invested. It heightens the intensity of the whole experience. Sadly, I haven't seen my Teacher in months. Life gets in the way.
That's it for the past week. I've IMd a lot with other guys but that's all the sex I had. I'm supposed to meet the Boy Toy again for more fun. XD We were supposed to hook up Monday but it got cancelled. I've told him before I do not entertain late at night. But it's Friday, I took a several-hour nap earlier tonight, and I'm feeling both lonely and horny, so I said sure, come over. I need human contact - preferably NAKED human contact. XD
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I must be sick
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Posted:Oct 13, 2008 8:58 pm
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Boy Toy was supposed to come over today. I have to get into work early in order to spend any time with him. This morning, when I woke up and was tired an wanted to go back to sleep, I hoped I'd have a message from him saying he couldn't come over. It wasn't that I didn't want to see him, I just didn't want to have to go to work early.
I did have a message from him, saying I didn't have to be home early in order to see him today because his schedule changed. Hooray! I go back to sleep.
He was supposed to email me if he could come over. All day, there was nothing. Leave work on time and come home. Kind of hoped he wasn't here because I wanted to eat dinner and change clothes and stuff, not try to cram in a quickie.
This right here is already a problem, because I nearly *always* want to get what I can, even if it's a quickie. Especially with someone I know and like who's lots of fun and gives me a good time. So that's already really wrong.
I also have this completely unreliable guy I have been having phone sex with on and off (mostly off) since February, I'd guess, who I call PSG for - duh - Phone Sex Guy. Even though I haven't thought about him in any kind of phone sex way in a while, I sent him email tonight saying I'd like to talk to him again. I don't know why at all. It's not like I was thinking sexy thoughts about him. It just popped into my head, so I sent him an email. We'll see what he says.
When he was busy trying to atone for not talking to me for, like, four months, he actually had the nerve/stupidity to tell me that I should feel *flattered* he got off when we had sex because he had just had sex with his new gf for an hour the weekend before and hadn't cum. Dude, seriously - that's, like, every woman's dream sex. You please me for an hour and no mess to clean up? that's what I want to hear!
Besides, whether a guy gets off or not has very little to do with me. Not that I'm not good.  Just that we all have our own fantasies going on in our heads while we're fucking. I know a guy can sometimes keep from cumming if he wants to and get rid of an erection. I think it's really more about what's going on in your head than who the girl on the other end of the hot wet pussy is. Am I right?
Anyhow, since he had this gf lately, even though they broke up,, we've been trying to be 'friends.' I think it's going okay, but if someone said I had to pick between being friends with him or having hot phone sex with him, I don't know what I'd pick. It's easy to say "I could have hot phone sex any time I want!" and since friendship's harder to get, I should take that.
But I'm not really his friend. We're just fake friends, you know? He doesn't give a shit about my life, he only talks to me when he wants something (not always sex), and that's not my definition of a friend. I'd gladly give that up for hot phone sex. So we'll see what he has to say about
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