Just one last bedtime post! . .
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Posted:Mar 28, 2012 7:08 am
Last Updated:Apr 2, 2012 9:41 pm
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Can you imagine? When you have known so many Ians, Johns, Marks, Peters, Neils, and Stephen/Stevens, Matthews, and I forgot, Robert/Bobs, enough to just make it very confusing every time you refer to any of them, as you really know or knew enough of them to make it very confusing to anyone you talk to, unless you clearly identify the one you are talking about. I have really known a minimum of at least six of each of these, and the names all have different feelings attached to them for me, as I do find that each name seems to be attached to a certain type of emotion for me.
I wonder how many others have had similar experiences, that even though every person they know/knew of the same name had their own totally individual personality, there were just certain things that one would just attach to a certain name, like the name John. As a rule only, it's one that I just trust instinctively, and it's rare that it has been proven wrong for me.
On that note, I am heading off, in case I do say something wrong. I already feel that I have said something wrong, even though I sort of know that no way! Impossible! These names that I have mentioned are really as common as dirt, only somehow even when you know that, it's as if you have revealed something that you should not have. Strange.
Nite! 
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Is your name Ian???? . . .
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Posted:Mar 28, 2012 6:55 am
Last Updated:Jun 1, 2012 5:04 pm
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Hello, I was just reading back my blogs, and the name Ian jumped out at me again, and I remember, hmm, do I remember, so the question arises: Is your name Ian? cause if it is, yummy! well, maybe???
sorry, it's late and I have already had one sleep tonight, the early one, and now I am in "mischief mode"? something like that. As I said it's late, and perhaps a good way of describing the way I am right now is exactly that, mischief mode, only it's my cheeks that feel slightly stretched from laughing at the various things written here, and a few that I added, and probably most of all memories of one particular "Ian". Yep, now that one was hmm!
Note: when I type in as in LOL, usually it's because I am remembering something that I really enjoyed at the time, and I am really too private to share what happened, and then someone suggests I had problems with "flooding"! OOPS!
UH, I think it might be time I disappear, in case I do say something inappropriate, and hope to goodness that Sir Teez doesn't turn up and notice!
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Under duress . .
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Posted:Mar 27, 2012 9:37 am
Last Updated:Apr 6, 2012 7:45 pm
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Wow! Strong words, only in today's world, they are true for many and often.
I am going to offend some with what I share here, as it will be what they would prefer you not to know.
I don't know if I shared all with you in my blogs. You may know that at one stage I lost my home. You may know that my car was written off with me in the back seat. You may know that I have suffered many and various losses at different times. Now I want to share with you, about what does go on right now, and everywhere in our world.
Here on this fun site, there are some sinister shady characters. They will befriend you, and what they do to you, only depends on the limits of both their desire and imagination, and it also depends on your self protective set up.
You are an adult, or you would not be here. Therefore they see you as fair game.
You also, can lose your home to a shady person who you met online. My situation was different, and I won't go into it. The fact is that I lost my home because I trusted a man, that easy, one bad man.
You probably already know that a bit of simple self protective behaviour will at least set alarm bells ringing if you go to meet someone and don't return home within a reasonable time period, although if you set things up right, you can have them so that it's going to take a bit for an assailant to get past your barriers. If you do let someone tie you up the first time you meet them, well, what can they do to you? The mind boggles, so I am not going there.
There are lots of things you can do to protect yourself, and your imagination and income are your only limits. You can always set up a note, somewhere, with a friend, or in several places, as to where you headed to. That's the best start. Then you can have one or several tracking devices, including a simple mobile phone that has GPS or what we call 3G over here. You might want to put something somewhere on your vehicle, just in case your mobile phone goes missing, as they do sometimes.
I am serious. You have no idea how cold-blooded some are. Chances are that most of us won't meet them, as we won't attract them, because they look for victims when they seek out who they will meet. You sort of need to be a victim for them to seek you out. Having said that, if you are off colour, or whatever, you may head there, and that is why it's so important to set up as much self protection as you can.
Only there is so much more. We just touched the tip of the iceberg. The predators on an adult site are just one small part of the jungle out there, only they do tend to start here, and work into the rest of your life. Recently I had one, claiming to be part of a couple, and he was demanding my email address. I wasn't happy at all with the demand. The outcomes were not good. The problem is that a few of us have a name attached to our email address, and despite us making sure our email does not identify us in any way, the provider decides to reveal our name on our email, so all the work we did to remain private is lost. Then a scammer comes along, gets our email, and starts their process. They don't need to meet us. All they need is our name, and they can achieve all sorts of negative things. It's a really bad idea to give out your email address until you feel ok about someone. I prefer to add them on an instant messenger, and after this charade, maybe I will put that on hold too. It will depend on the situation.
Then there is the other one. I have one contact, who I do like, regularly when I make contact with this person, I do get blue screens, or in the past, my computer would just die. Not a lot of fun, when you are battling to keep a lawn mower going, to keep a car on the road, and barely survive, let alone pay for fuel. I don't pay for fuel as a rule. I let someone else pay for it, as by the time I have paid for maintenance on the vehicle, there's no money left for anything. Then there are other things that need a repairman. Not everything is something we can repair ourselves. It's amazing, how the more you know about maintenance and repairs, the less you seem to be able to do for yourself, yet you never seem to stop fixing things around the place! Ok, that's a sidetrack. My point here is that some contacts just seem to be the source of some kind of malware or something that just keeps attacking our computers.
So that's the tip of the iceberg, as there are so many others, and due to my caring ways, I met a few over the years, and suffered the consequences.
I do try to present as nice and friendly these days, only I have had to really tighten up. If you look at my blogs, you will notice that I work really hard at being open and sharing, just I know that I have to work hard at keeping all sorts of rules, firstly for my safety, and then to keep the peace in my world.
I can't reveal the identity of this or that person, as when I do, it links back to my identity, so it's really clever to keep theirs anonymous as possible. If I do refer to locations, it's important to make sure than no times or people are referred to as such, and if they are, that they are really not identified.
We all make mistakes, and slip up. When I do, it's important that I do not panic, and calmly look at the situation, and work out the best and safest damage control. It might be as easy as taking a post down again, because you slipped up and revealed a name, as I did earlier. I named a of mine, only it was my dog, and being a name, it is one that many dogs are called, so it doesn't matter in the big picture. Still, I should not have named the dog. I only noticed that I had done that later, after I put the blog up and read it back. If the name were not just a common name, I would have taken the post back down straight away, and edited the name, only I looked at it and thought, yep, another stupid mistake, and I won't worry about it.
Now where was I? Ok, then there are situations when it's quite safe to use a first name. A classic example is one of my blogs in which I name Jim. He is so far in my distant past, and as it is, I have known several "Jim"s, so the question arises, which one does she mean? Do I mean one you know, or someone I barely remember, except with the feelings associated with him, as it's so long ago?
At one stage I knew six Ians, so if I named one of them, I knew that no matter how smart people might behave, nobody was going to know which one I meant, and I knew that there would be quite a few who would assume the wrong one.
See there was this man named Ian, who worked for a car company, and he was single, and eligible, so it could be assumed, only it wasn't him, and the Ian I might have referred to, hmm, now that's another hot and steamy memory, and I will leave it at that. Then there's another Ian from the very distant past, that made me giggle the whole time on a wedding anniversary, as he kept providing another drink for me. That day was a lot of fun. Goodness, and then there's another Ian, who had these incredible eyes! OH, yummy! Those eyes were dangerous, and both of us were good vegemites, me being married at that time, and he being nice and young and well behaved! I am serious, he was a lovely young man, totally decent, just chuckling, as he was the sort that a few women would no doubt fight over in the very near future at that time, as he had the looks. It was only a matter of time. Oh, the memory! Wow! He definitely had the looks!
Sorry about the sidetrack! The woman who won him, would have had to have a lot of self confidence. Only he was really decent, and I suspect that he would have been totally faithful once he became attached. He was just one of those, nice.
It's ok, I covered the subject, self protection. I did point out that there are some really devious scammers. I did point out that they only need your email address if they are real scammers. Then there are others who are going to do a lot more damage, and they will pursue you accordingly.
It's at the stage where you are just better off not getting attached to anyone anymore, and even though that sounds terrible, it's a fact. It's really dangerous to get close to anyone you don't thoroughly know in our world today. It's dangerous just meeting someone new. I do know as I have taken a lot of risks in my time. I thought I was smart. I thought the risks were calculated and in many cases it was all good and ok. Only in some cases, things proved to turn out terrible, and I did pay dearly. I am not just talking about here on an adult site.
Normally I find this site is fantastic, and as safe as they come, because all I have to do is filter, read what is written by the "man" that I am looking at, note what has been said, and just watch. Then I can make sure I only maintain further contact, if I do feel ok. Sometimes you read a profile, and you feel yep, he is as safe as, for whatever reason, and you are right. Just sometimes you read a profile and it's like being driven through a huge blanket of fog, and you feel like you really know nothing at all about the man. That's when I find myself asking lots of questions. Then there are times, when all your questions have been answered in a few clear words, and again, you know it's safe. It all depends on the situation, and also on what you are looking for.
It also depends on what you have available to lose. The less you have to lose, the safer you might be, only then there is still your body that can be damaged.
I have said enough, in that I have warned you that nothing might be as it seems, and you really need to look at every move you make to ensure your safety. Yes, that goes for men also, any single. Remember, couples do have another to help in their self protection. A single only has their personal resources, unless they take a friend. Now that would be interesting!
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I was asleep!
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Posted:Mar 27, 2012 8:27 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 12:13 pm
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I was woken up by the going ballistic. That was way over an hour ago now. In the end I came here because I was not going back to sleep. Between emotionally overheating, and just being restless, there was no point. Then when I arrived here, I found those beautiful comments. I already responded thanking them. For some reason I can't see my own responses.
Maybe they censor them like other things!
Ok, seriously, it's not a lot of fun being woken up an hour or three after going to sleep. As I will not admit how early I head for sleep, nor how late anymore, we will leave it at an hour or three.
There was a real commotion before I headed for sleep. I think that's what made me nod off. I didn't like it one bit. At first I thought it was a car backfiring. Then I thought it was the same car backfiring. After a while, when it seemed to return in this direction again, I wasn't so sure anymore, and wondered if they had some kind of weapon and were discharging it. That's where I will leave it, as I just decided to try and focus on the computer, as I was still playing the odd game at the time, having had a chat earlier, and then being upset when a blue screen hit for the x millionth time. I am so sick of blue screens. That's what I pay the telco for, to keep them at bay. Grr. By this time I had had enough of everything, so I shut down and climbed into bed, where I didn't last five minutes and woke myself soon after with discomfort, so I turned everything off, as there's no point in having it on when you're asleep.
So then after a while, the woke me up, and I fetched myself the usual milk type concoction that I often get in the middle of the night when woken up, and then of course the cup of tea. Only that was ages ago, and since I have been here, reading and typing.
So, no, it's not my fault I am awake, and I do hope I have not made you uncomfy in any way.
There's a lot I am not saying, and I should, just sometimes it's really hard to know how to say it. I will try again in another blog straight after this one. Hmm.
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Moving on . . .for sure
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Posted:Mar 26, 2012 7:21 pm
Last Updated:May 27, 2012 10:17 pm
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Wow, what a past I have!
Now, when I was a bride of seventeen, I had never been allowed in my mother's kitchen. I had no idea as to how to cook, so I taught myself. I didn't know how to do housework, as I had always let Mum do everything. She'd tell me, here's a bucket of water and a cloth. Wash the wall. I'd look at her. Then I'd try to do what she asked. She's say, no, that's wrong, you do it like this. Then she'd wash the whole wall. That happened with pretty much everything, except vaccuuming. I think I did a bit of that, and maybe some sweeping. I did sweep and mop for my grandmother in her shop, because when she said do it, she felt that I would. If it wasn't right, she'd say no, you do . . .and I'd do it. Not a problem, so I learned a few things in the florist about cleaning, especially buckets, nice putrid ones. Maybe that's why at a later time, even though I have a weak stomach, I'd just get into putrid things, and get it over with, the faster the better. in that shop I did learn everything, even writing bills. I just wasn't allowed to make the arrangements. Did that stop me in my own life at a later time? No. If I want flowers, I just do it, like everything else.
I bought a book called "Cook with Confidence", and started reading. In there it told me how to braise steak, how to pan fry, and a bunch of other things.
I'd have dinner at a lady's house, and I'd ask her, how did you do that? after she served up a meal. She'd tell me, and I'd make a mental note. It did take me ten years to develop my spaghetti recipe. When I finally did the "grande spaghetti", I decided, yep, perfect, just the way I like it, meaning that to me, it was just like the beautiful spaghetti I had been served by an italian mamma when I was a little girl. I had done it, and it tasted just right. These days I am slack, and do the boring variety, only it's still home cooked. I used the same techniques for learning to bake, because I love cakes and biscuits. If I want them, I have to bake them, so I did.
I think one of the most important things I learned out of my cookbooks, and I say plural, because by this time I was reading the "Women's Weekly Cookbook", and it was big, bold and full of a lot more recipes, or instructions on cooking, one of the most important things was how to saute an onion. It is so easy! Once you know that, you have the basis of half a million dinner recipes, as without fried onions, most meals just don't taste the same.
Actually cakes have a basic order of preparation, and so do biscuits. Get that under your belt, and before you know it, you'll be a star in your own kitchen. There is one rule that will help a lot in the kitchen. Stay with anything you are cooking on the stove, and keep an eye on all other cooking. Make sure that you check things, or stir if on the stove, and ensure it has enough water (unless using oil) in it, to prevent burning. It's easy as. Try it some time. If you buy appliances, they come with childproof instructions, as in step by step, so that anyone can cook things with them.
I learned a lot from tasting. I'd taste a meal, and I'd ask myself now what's in this? I'd work out that it had garlic, an easy one, a bit of parsley perhaps, and then a few other things. I'd always ask the cook if I didn't work it out for myself.
Then when I wanted to add herbs, I bought one herb book, and before I knew it, I had fourteen related books, and I know about herbs now.
So all this is boring. Well, that is exactly how I learned to use a screwdriver, a hammer, a drill, and am still learning to saw. Give me the right saw, and I have no problem. I have always had trouble with a traditional saw. I can use various trimming saws, and have an electric saw, so it doesn't matter anymore.
Recently, I was told "that's a good beginner's toolbox". I did not say one word, as I own about four toolboxes. It's ok. That one is my little toolbox, for taking with me, for this, that and the other around the place. The other toolboxes are for everything that really doesn't fit into this toolbox, only guess what! Yep, most of it is in this tiny teensy toolbox, and there's really no room for all of them, and they are still in there, including the sockets.
I taught myself how to basically maintain a lawnmower, and I do all my own cord replacements on the grass trimmer. Then I turned around and replaced the fuel tank on my mower. Only I can't do everything on it. I often lubricate things that don't sound healthy, and yes, I bother to find out which lubricant to use before I start, from someone who actually knows what they are talking about. I tighten things that have come loose, including pot/saucepan handles (to the correct tension). I check other things, to ensure they are properly maintained, and if they are not right, I do maintain them, so that they last. I am the idiot paying for things, so I want them to last as long as I can make them last. That is a very good reason for me really keeping things as healthy as possible, whatever they are.
I used to do a bit of work on the car, only even the men get baffled now that everything is computer controlled, and still there are things I can do, just I feel that I do everything else, so the mechanic can work on the car!
Um, yep, I have learned sewing, having a Fashion Retail Certificate, which means that I learned the construction as well as the retail side of things, and have learned some leatherwork, string knotting and a bunch of other skills.
Maybe that's the thing with me. I say the machine is dead, or alive if on, and treat it a bit like a living creature, in that I "feed" it with fuel, and give it the healthy diet of oil, grease or whatever it needs, a bit like an animal, and I treat the animals in a similar fashion, only their grease tends to be things like bones or meat, depending on which animal we are talking about.
If I want a new wall, I am very likely to work out how to install it. Yes, when I bought my new kitchen, I did let someone else build it and install it, only that was then. Now I know a lot more, and if I work on my kitchen, I might never need to install a new one, as I might just make the one I have lovely like a new one.
I can't believe how much better I slept last night after installing a new security chain on my front door, as I have felt twice that someone was watching me sleep. Yes, I did check the security footage, and decided there must be something wrong when I couldn't find evidence of someone entering on those occasions. Anyway, there is this thing called emotional security, and if the security chain creates emotional security, then it is worth the small cost, and my installation efforts, which took at least five minutes!
Maybe now you know that oops, maybe she doesn't have to have a man, and that is what happens when men say you want it, do it your self! I did, and now I have everything I need, in my abilities. If I don't know how to do it, I can quickly learn. Unlike others, I do understand OH&S. That's occupational health and safety, meaning that I do understand that if you cut hair, and someone walks in, like when you trim flowers, you need to make sure that either you have swept up the mess before someone walks in, or keep cleaning regularly, and should someone walk in at the wrong moment, ensure that they are aware of the trip/slip hazards, and to avoid them. I understand to look for what could cause injury, and do something suitable to prevent it. Would you like me to drag this on? Nope, didn't think so.
Everything in life is as easy or as complicated as you make it, and sometimes when we are alone, it gets really complicated, not because it is, just because we feel alone, and that's the time to think about, ok, how will I handle this? Depending on the time of your life, the place and other factors, when you are young, you just get in and do it, and when you are older, if you feel fine, you will just do it too.
Sometimes, no matter how skilled you are, you long for company, the sort that has a brain like yours, or at least the respect needed for that kind of a brain, and if you find it, everything is easy again. Only until you find that beautiful mind, it might be a while before anything feels easy, and that's just life.
I think I have to go and do something useful, sorry! Gotta go!
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Thank you, you marry your best friend, or, as I walk away.
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Posted:Mar 26, 2012 4:09 pm
Last Updated:May 27, 2012 10:15 pm
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As I walk away from my best friend, it's time to thank him for everything he did give to me, so after my phone is charged I will send him one last sms, and here is where I will compose it.
As I walk out of your life, I want to thank you, for the day we picked up the pot belly stove, the day you drove me to Canberra, the day I drove you to Calvary Hospital. Thank you. Thank you for the day you installed my thermometer, it's still lovely there on the wall. Thank you for sharing rye sandwiches with me. Thank you for the day you took me out to lunch. That was different. Thank you for appreciating my baking of that loaf. Thank you for the repairs you did to my fence. They are a reminder of how you gave your all at that time. Thank you for sharing your childhood photos of New Guinea, and Wagga with me. Thank you for introducing me to your brother and your best friends. Thank you for giving me Toby. Neither of us knew that I would not deal with him. I still miss him, just the photos come up on my computer, and I smile at him. He is still gorgeous. Thank you for the unnumbered times you played music to me. Thank you for the day you played Bee Gees to me on my piano. Thank you for Science Daily. Thank you for letting me walk your dog. That was wonderful too. Thank you for inspiring me to decide to sell the car, and replace it with a motor scooter. That will take a while to complete, as I will have to save a lot of money, only I know that I can and will do it. Thank you for making me cups of tea. That was the best, every time. Thank you for giving me all that incredible love over those seven years that I really needed to heal, and most of all, your conversation and company. I did love every minute. At Christmas, when I lost my best friend, it broke me, however I am healing, and ready to move on. It's only right that I thank you and remind you of how special you really are. Yes, you marry your best friend, however neither you nor I are normal, so we don't. Instead, you chose to walk away, and if I care about you, then I will respect that and never return. I do wish you only the best in your life, for you.
It will be a little while before the phone is charged enough to send this, so I will have to wait, and then send it. Once it is up in print, I will be able to see better, if I have covered everything. I am surprised that I am not teary eyed. I was expecting tears before now.
I have checked it. I think it is ready to send as soon as the phone is charged. Maybe I have already cried all my tears, and I really am as healed as I think I might be. I don't know yet.
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. . . .and where am I now?? . . .
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Posted:Mar 25, 2012 7:41 pm
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2012 5:35 am
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Someone said something on their blog, in direct response to me, ever so politely, and ever so accurately. In totally different words, this person basically asked why I am still here?
Now I was inclined to agree with this person, only I just finished reading another's blog, and what was said there is exactly why I am here. It's about communication. I just love communication, and it's fine for me if it is with faceless people, although if I could get them to show their faces, I would.
I am no longer here to find a partner. I suspect that I have not been here for that reason for some time, only why change that part of my profile? (Having said that, if the right man for me, very different to the perfect man, found me, I am sure I would not say go away.) If I am not here looking for some kind of a partner, then there is no official reason to be here, however, I am here to communicate, with this person about this, or that person about that.
I am here to fulfil my own selfish desires, whatever they might be, and most are to do with communication, and in the process, consideration, of the person, or what they say, or in some cases, a negative consideration of what they say, and as a result, my negative response.
Every time I see a negative response coming from another person, I see that person as having a weakness, yet, I find, that my greatest weakness, is an incredible inability to shut my mouth, and a really strong addiction to putting my two cents worth on any and every blog that doesn't conform to my way of thinking. While I consider others inconsiderate, I am finding that perhaps the most inconsiderate person is right now typing another opinionated blog.
I do hope others don't see me quite as badly as I do at this moment. If they do, I may end up with nobody to share with in any way.
. .. so yes, there is a reason I am here, only I do see that there is so much more to life than being opinionated on an adult site, so the more I get out there and do things, if only boring things like cleaning up this place, then that is a good thing . . . ..
. .. and it's a good thing when I come here and work on communicating, whether it achieves something or not. . .
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It seems that this board is not working very well. . .
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Posted:Mar 25, 2012 3:30 am
Last Updated:Apr 6, 2012 7:40 pm
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It seems that this board is not working very well. Does anyone have any better ideas?
If not, why would this idea not be working?
Is everyone over here too busy mopping up after flooding, or like me, just trying to get over the dramas around that time, with all the rain, perhaps like me, being evacuated, or just dealing with the miseries?
Or is there something else that I don't know about?
Please do enlighten me, and share with your comment.
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I am impressed.
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Posted:Mar 22, 2012 8:17 pm
Last Updated:Mar 22, 2012 8:19 pm
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As a few of you have observed, I have set up a blog called discussion board at the top of my blog posts, the idea being that the topic can be thrown back and forth by fellow bloggers, and other than delete anything really offensive, I leave it alone.
If you are aware, you will also know that a blog post by charmer961 set all of this off. I have left a link back to his blog on both my original discussion board which I have now renamed to the topic,
Setting up an interactive blog . . thanks to charmer961 and his followers. This is not a link, just the title. In either that blog or the new Discussion Board, while the topic is still Setting up an interactive blog: Part Two, you can find the link to charmer's blog post that started it all.
I am impressed with the results, and I can only thank those who commented on his original post, as I quite like what I have done here. It's pretty easy to set up, just call the blog Discussion Board or similar, start it with the topic of the day/week, or just the current topic, and go for it. Tag it as your Top (sticky) post, and leave the "I want to review" dot on "nothing", so that anyone can add a post. Press the red "Add" button and go do something useful. Come back later and see the outcomes!
For me, that discussion board is the only place I will allow anyone to leave a comment without me previewing it, still under threat of deleting anything that might be offensive if needed at a later time. I do think it's a good idea to preview elsewhere, just in case.
Now that I am pleased with what I have achieved today, I want to go do something completely different. Hope your day/night is good.
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Setting up an interactive blog: Part Two:
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Posted:Mar 22, 2012 7:56 pm
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2012 5:23 am
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Setting up an interactive blog: Part Two:
The link to the blog that started this: [post 2879168]
If you have been following this from charmer961's blog, you will know that he started a discussion on how to set up an interactive blog, and as I like doing things, I thought I'd try this. Now to a certain extent it has worked, only not completely. I can add a link to his blog here, the one that set this off, only it seems that I can't add a link back here when I comment on his blog. That's a bit confusing, like lots of things in life.
Of course if I can't add a link back here when I comment on his blog, there is a good chance that if you leave a comment here, you won't be able to leave a link, and that is probably only in most cases, not all, as this site seems to have different rules for different people. No, I am not going to touch on that at all. I will leave that subject alone.
So what do you think about all of this? Can you see it catching on if the topics are good? Are you able to link between the different blogs? Easily?, or do you have a special way to do it? Please share if you know a way.
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Where do I start???
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Posted:Mar 22, 2012 3:20 pm
Last Updated:Jun 1, 2012 5:09 pm
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So many swear words have passed through my normally coherent mind since Christmas.
So much has gone wrong, blah blah. It just never seems to stop.
Then there are these tiny rainbows, just sparkling here, there or somewhere you just never expected one to appear, like that dog.
Now that and I have something in common, a non demanding, wonderful love for the other, and sometimes for those who definitely don't deserve for us to care about them. I miss that damned dog, and it's really nice to have found out she misses me. Never mind, trust me, I did nothing wrong.
...and that reminds me of my dog, out the back, and her total wonderful love for me, and oh dear, repeating myself . . and never mind, trust me, I did nothing wrong.
Then there's the cat, and how even though she is one of those impossible "don't touch me" cats, she has her moments, and it is very good, as they are more rainbows.
. . and if I go out the front, the gorgeous cherry tomatoes, a burst of sunshine in each one, not refrigerated, just fresh off the vine, yummy! If you ask, I might find one or two for you.
Sometimes the rainbows appear in ways we were not anticipating, not out in the back yard, not in every day life, somewhere we just never ever thought we'd find something we call a rainbow, and when we see it, we don't recognise it, and then afterwards, we go, what? How did I miss that? . . . and we feel like an idiot.
But then, they say what is meant to be will be, so maybe the rainbow will become more than just an ethereal vision in the distance. Maybe, because it is meant to be, it will show that it is very real, and good, and maybe it will all work out for a change.
Now wouldn't that be nice?
Uncle Stuart had a pilot's license, and that might be why he took me up in his Cessna when I was such a tiny girl. Wish I could catch up with Uncle Stewart. He was such a gentle man, and he would never have had any . I'd love to see him, and let him know that this "little girl", not so little today, loved him, really appreciated the way he treated me, and while there are ogres out there who think there is more to this, that's ok. If there were, I wouldn't be trying to share the message through this adult site. I do want Uncle Stewart to know that I treasured that Little Golden Book Atlas as long as it was in my possession. Then when it disappeared, I was so upset, and it didn't turn up for many years until it ended up given to one of my .
Only there was the inscription, Love, Uncle Stuart, and yes, I may have misspelt that, as I no longer remember his name's spelling, just that I did love him back. I recently asked Mum about what actually happened, as I really wanted to catch up with him. She said that she feels it would no longer be possible to contact him, and that makes me sad. One day, I grabbed the phone, and there were so many people with the same surname, and variations of the spelling, that it was pretty much a total waste of time, ringing them one by one, as the chances of finding "my uncle" were pretty much none.
What would I have gained by contacting him? Probably very little, just the satisfaction of knowing that I did catch up with him, the satisfaction of knowing that I told him, that I really appreciate the way he put up with me screaming all the way to the aircraft, all because he knew that I'd stop as soon as we started flying, and I did, not another sound, as my mouth opened wide with amazement.
Do I love flying? I clocked up about seventeen flights to and from boarding school. It was the best part of my life back then, oh, other than my school friends. They were the best too, well, nearly all of them.
I wish I were religious today, just so that I could keep all of them, only I am not and so that would be a lie.
Then there's that other thing. I did catch up with a few from my childhood in recent times. The sinister part is that every one that I caught up with, suddenly disappeared soon after I caught up with them, and that is really sinister.
Only I do have the contented feeling that firstly, I made the effort to try and locate them, and then that I did succeed in some cases, not all, and even though I was still so damaged, and maybe they thought I was totally nuts, which might have been right in a way, I still had the pleasure of hearing them again after all these years.
I wasn't able to visit any, as I am too far away from any of them. It was just really nice to talk on the phone and I did that with each of them at least once before they were gone. It was really good, because it reminded me that I am a human, and not terrible as some have tried to make out I am.
Due to life, and perhaps a touch of human interference, I have been cut off from my circle of friends several times, so I had to learn to start afresh, not once, over and over. There does come a time, when it all just feels too hard, and even though you once were a social person, it just feels too hard to pursue, especially when you have tried to catch up with those from the past and sort of failed, in that you weren't able to keep any of them in your life, and you do have no idea why.
Enough said. Time to make a new start to a new day.
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Setting up an interactive blog . . thanks to charmer961 and his followers
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Posted:Mar 20, 2012 10:08 pm
Last Updated:Mar 22, 2012 7:44 pm
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A little while ago, (an hour or so,) I read something on charmer961's blog, and I was impressed, so I thought I'd try this. The worst that can happen is failure.
Today's Topic:
charmer961's latest blog [post 2879168]
It would be nice of you to visit his blog and read the topic along with all the comments for yourself. What I will do, is use that topic here today, and in a few days, once the topic looks exhausted, find a new topic from somewhere and post it here. At this stage, there is no reason why the whole thing can't just be taken down from "sticky" status, to not sticky, so it will end up somewhere in my blog pages for those still interested.
All comments you post will be up as soon as you write them. Now as I am me, I will review them, and if I feel any are "offensive", I will remove them. This does mean that most comments will be left up, as it takes a lot for me to feel a comment is inappropriate. Management is far more likely to remove your comment than I am.
I think most bloggers tend to be like that, finding that a comment reflects the author rather then denigrating the blog owner. There was mention as to whether the Quote option or the Comment option should be used. As I don't think I do have either I tend to just leave a comment. Again, up to you.
Looking forward to seeing what you have to say about it all.
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.. . I do wish you all the best . .. .
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Posted:Mar 18, 2012 3:33 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 12:13 pm
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In between the dark and gloomy, there needs to be a ray of sunshine, to make today worth living.
Yes, there is the thought that tomorrow will be a better day, and yes, I can ruin that saying, that won't change the damage that has been done, ONLY, the damage won't hurt as much, isn't as bad any more, and won't be as bad anymore, the more time passes, because either it heals, or you just get over it, slowly, but surely.
I have a Dr. Hook album, well from what I understand, really their only album, and on it there's a lovely song, one of the twenty fantastic songs. Yes, I do like every song on that album, and that is the only album I have ever had that has only good songs on it. Ok, back to the subject, the one really special song is "Storms never last" and that is so true. Next time you are down, do remember that Storms never last. They may wreak havoc and destruction. People also may be terrible, however none of it will last. Yes the people may stay terrible, however if you don't like them, you will either walk away, or shut them out, or both, whatever works.
Now, back to what I wanted to say. On this site, there are some wonderful bloggers, and while I might share doom and gloom, they are writing about sunny things, some putting up jokes, others just writing anything they can to make the rest of us feel better, and it's really special. Those bloggers need to be acknowledged, and right here, right now, I am saying thank you to them.
You know who you are. Thank you for your wonderful posts. People like me need your posts.
There are people out there, who also need my posts, as my posts show them how it's possible to fight for your life, and beat your aggressors, and live to tell the tale. No, not everyone will survive their dramas, however, it is possible to beat them, and that's what needs to be said.
It's also important to consider how to beat the dramas, rather than just go in fighting, as aggressors often plan what they will do, so if you know that they will plan ahead, you can plan ahead, and should you be confronted with an aggressor, by planning ahead, you can do the unexpected, and even if you have not planned ahead, I am sharing with you now.
Do not automatically react. It is what they expect of you. Think for a moment or two, and decide a reaction, or if you like. to not react, a reaction that will do something positive to help you in this situation, to either escape immediately, or achieve another end that will help bring the situation to an end earlier than later.
In life, it's always important to be strong in yourself, to be forearmed if possible, for anything that might enter your life, be it weather, a person, or just a situation. It's important to know that these events can and do happen, and how your react, can either save you, or destroy you, and you do need to be aware of all of this ahead of time, so that if an event occurs, you will get through it ok.
Now I wish you love and good things in your life, safety and well-being. I do wish you all the best, whoever you are. I send out my good wishes, because the more good wishes we put out there, the better the whole world can and will be, no matter what the aggressors do.
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