Leaving on a jet plane
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Posted:Sep 23, 2014 6:02 pm
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5 days and counting until I go out east for work. Sunday it all travel day with 4 other co-workers Monday is working at home office and Tuesday night is sales dinner... I am very excited to travel and stay in a hotel and have some alone time, but I am also worried as its for work and 8 hours with these people is one thing, but all day with them, 3 meals a day and "social" time... well we will see... I was hoping to meet up with someone while I was out there, but right now it does not look like it will happen...
xoxox
Molly
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Its gettin weird
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Posted:Sep 20, 2014 1:21 pm
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2014 5:49 pm
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I truly think that the relationship I have with Chris has gone into a weird level....
He says he loves me at least 3 or 4 times a day, we talk at least twice a day, we see each other at least every other day. but we haven't had sex since Aug 24th, I kissed him last Saturday, with very little reaction... is it hat we have been together for so long that the newness is wearing off? His it 100% his are all he can deal with right now... 22 year old lazy sob, got kicked out of collage, got kicked out of air force and has 3 months to get a job or he will get kicked out of the house) 22 year olds BIG idea id to move to Vegas and get a job...so he is not even looking around here for a job...Stupid . 18 year old is away at collage and 17 year old is a senior in high school.... I can not wait for Oct 30th to get here to see what happens with 22 year old... I want my boyfriend back... but really how long do I wait in the number 2 spot???? We had more dates and more sex when he was married and all 3 boys lived at home....
Tonight it out by myself ( no date) and my gf for her bd... lets see if I meet anyone new 
Happy Weekend everyone xoxox
Molly
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a little left out
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Posted:Sep 9, 2014 6:16 pm
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These next 7 weeks are going to be super tough...as I wait very unpationaly. You see Oct 30 is whe "C" oldest must either have a job or move out of the house. Also its "C" birthday... Also I am hoping is when he is back to his old self. Sex has been off the table for a while as he has been so stressed out wirh work and his boys.
I have been so quite and just staying off to the side, being there for when he needed me....I get an I love you everyday...but I feel like its just words or going thru the motions.
I am hoping that after oct 30, things return to normal.
Happy back to school season and baseball play off and yes football....lol
Smile and be happy
True_red
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Posted:Jul 11, 2014 7:46 pm
Last Updated:Sep 9, 2014 5:56 pm
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Where has it all gone? What will you do with the time we have left? Every day is 24 hours...did i get to do everything i wanted to?
Well i know its been a while since I last posted. I really have been trying to have as much fun this summer...was able to hit summerfest a few times.
This weekend excited about my 25th class reunion. And coming up a couple of brewers games.
As far as fun I am sorry to report a quite couple of months...its all about timing...and it hasnt been on my side. My battery boyfriend needs a vacatiin and soon. Lol
Work is been ok and the are great...even hubby has hugged me twice this month...so he is trying...i think.
I get to house sit at the end of the month, so looking fowrd to "playing" house in what could someday be my new address...but that has been put on the back burner as the oldest has been kicked out of air force and will be moving back in aug.( he was to be gone for 6 years).
Anyway so options are back open...including my teacher friend and a recently single public servent...
Have a wonderful summer and keep cool, have fun!!!
Iget
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Posted:Jul 11, 2014 7:45 pm
Last Updated:May 17, 2024 8:33 am
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Where has it all gone? What will you do with the time we have left? Every day is 24 hours...did i get to do everything i wanted to?
Well i know its been a while since I last posted. I really have been trying to have as much fun this summer...was able to hit summerfest a few times.
This weekend excited about my 25th class reunion. And coming up a couple of brewers games.
As far as fun I am sorry to report a quite couple of months...its all about timing...and it hasnt been on my side. My battery boyfriend needs a vacatiin and soon. Lol
Work is been ok and the are great...even hubby has hugged me twice this month...so he is trying...i think.
I get to house sit at the end of the month, so looking fowrd to "playing" house in what could someday be my new address...but that has been put on the back burner as the oldest has been kicked out of air force and will be moving back in aug.( he was to be gone for 6 years).
Anyway so options are back open...including my teacher friend and a recently single public servent...
Have a wonderful summer and keep cool, have fun!!!
Iget
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My Birthday Weekend
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Posted:Apr 1, 2014 6:02 pm
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Wow Happy 43 to Me!!!
Had a great weekend. Started out on Friday with a fish fry with "C" and his youngest boy who he had for the weekend. It was nice, nothing fancy but kinda cool as it was a place that I never got to go to before because I am not a member.
Then Saturday was a full day of cleaning and helping around the house.
Saturday Night was SRIM fest at the Brat Stop. Went to see "Mr. Big" band back on stage for the first time in a while... He looked good, hope they get back to some of the local bars. also saw a band from Chicago ( 2 , they were prob. 25 years old, so to me) but they were really good the bass player did a no handed cartwheel and never missed a beat....
Then saw the Main stage act Bella Cain... if you never have see and like Country They are a must see!!!!!!
"C" gave me a very pretty Sterling Silver necklace with a diamond chip in it.. with matching earrings. So not what I was expecting, I though maybe a gift card to get my nails done or something....it was VERY nice.
Sunday went to Drag Queen Bingo at a restaurant in Milwaukee... Had a hoot. Funny show, didn't win anything but laughed really hard for 2 hours straight.
Then then came Monday the cream of the crop OPENING DAY!!!! I was so excited, went for breakfast with the hubby after the were on the bus for school. Then it was off to Miller Park, we were first in line to get in as the doors opened at 11:00 and I was interviewed by a local tv station for being the first person through the gates...what a perfect way to end my birthday!!!!
So I would have to say this was one of the top 5 birthdays I have had.
So now it is April, which brings my sons Birthday and a trip up north to see family and my 17th wedding Anniversary. Along with Easter and soccer practice and games and the start to hubbys softball season. So its going to be a very busy month.
"C" is leaving to go to HI for 2 weeks for the AF in May so it will be a long time before we will be able to hook up, but I have Daddy to keep me company....lol
Hoping the weather takes a warm turn soon as I want to stop wearing sweaters and start wearing t-shirts.
I got a new phone for my Birthday and it wont let me add the Local Adult Companion app so I am going to see if I can download it from here.
Have a great April everyone.
XOXOXO
Molly
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He loves me, He loves me not
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Posted:Mar 15, 2014 3:33 pm
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So everyday "c" calls my cell, calls me at work or sends a text or a fb post and says I love you.... this use to make me very happy and excited. ( "D" has not said it in any form for years).... Anyway Like I said I use to love it when he said it... now in light of things... He might move back to the east cost in a few years... I wonder if it just words... or does he really mean it?
I would rather go back to fwb and get my head straight than to get my hopes hope and be hurt 3 years down the line.
I am " grounded" this weekend [ staying home to proof a point that I don't go out ALL the time] but my and I still went to the St. Patrick day parade in my town today. And "C" joined us with his youngest and friends of his... It was Very COOL!!!
I am such a planner, I just need to know what's going to happen next and when I don't know I get worried and anxious... this is not only butting stress on me at home but at work too.
so my birthday is coming up and I am doing something I love to do going to opening day of Baseball.
"c" has his boys in March so we don't get to spend any time together, April between UTA and we are both gone the 2nd weekend... then Easter , and "d" and I 17th wedding anniversary.. so I don't see us getting together much in April, May he is in HI for 3 weeks So that's pretty much shot.... I asked him iif he wanted to take a break and he said no.... I am being a girl and over thinking things...AGAIN...
It was nice to see an old friend at the Parade today "G".
I am looking forward to my BD weekend... get to see the First man who started this ball a rollen, he got the band back together and I have tixs for the show... I have chatted with him via text for a while and I got to see him this week when he dropped of the tix at my work... still as good look as ever...
Well I need a glass of wine and some xbox time with my , I am going to learn this mind craft thing if its the last thing I do...lol
xoxox
Molly
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26 years built up
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Posted:Mar 3, 2014 9:11 am
Last Updated:Jul 11, 2014 7:46 pm
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So the week of February 24, 2014 will not be forgotten any time soon. The week was going along just fine , Wednesday i got to meet up with an old friend for some great adult fun and catching up on life..... Thursday was normal, then came Friday.....I got home from work and my has been having a rough time in spelling. We worked w th her all week hoping to finally pass a test. When i look in her backpack to find she didnt take the test, long story short her teacher is ass hole, who thinks he is all that. So to put it nicely i was very upset at the teacher and the whole school system period, so i as a women had about an hour to stew about this , the hubby got home and we had emailed earlier in the day about plans to get some movies and xbox games and a pizza for dinner..... Do he gets home, i sits talking to him about the test and the teacher and he there with his normal blank look on his face, i am getting more pissed off by the minute when he is not getting upset or even letting me know how he feels, (we have gone 9 rounds with this teacher do far this year), well i guess the flood gates opened up because i saw a side of him i have never seen before....he was yelling and screaming and hitting his fist on a table, and swearing ....and all around a different person, he said fuck you towards me more than a few times....all in front of the .........which NEVER has happened....he headed to the bedroom i asked if he was going with to get movies, he said he doesn't want to be any where near me.... So i took the and we left. I called "C" he said to bring the over to his house if i wanted to.... I didn't. When we got home hubby had locked himself in bedroom . The and i watched the movie and ate the pizza. I slept on the coach in my clothes . He didn't come out of the bedroom until 5:00 pm on Saturday . When he came out he gave everyone a hug and said he was sorry., and that was that....no one has mentioned it since....wow.
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venting
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Posted:Feb 18, 2014 4:57 pm
Last Updated:Mar 4, 2014 6:23 pm
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ok I know I have not been on here in a while, and once again my head is so messed up I really don't know what to do.
lets start with last week Monday ( 2-10) I was over at "C" house and we were chatting, when he let it slip.... he may want to move back home to Buffalo when his boys are out of the house.
Well I was shocked, I had NEVER heard him say anything like this before and didn't even know he was thinking about this. {GUYS- PLEASE TELL US WHAT YOU ARE THINKING WE AR ENOT MIND READERS}
My first thought was I can t leave my and I don't want to take them away from their dad. So that was plain and simple, I am not going to Buffalo... Then what.... ???? If he goes back are we done???? if we are done why not be done now???
After his left the room I asked a few questions but I was a blubbering mess by this time... at the end nothing was decided. And now a week later I just don't know what to think.
We are still together at this time, but I have shifted back to FWB mode super fast.... I am already hurt and If I didn't shift it way down I was going to wakado on him... Girls back me up here, A guys tells you that in 3 to 4 years he wants to get a divorce and be with him.... then he says he is thinking about moving like 6 states away.... talk about a line to beat al lines....
ok - so now I have this huge girls night out with a lot of wives and girlfriends of his guys friends.... it was kinda going to be a get to know you better party, since I thought I was moving into his circle of friends... now I have to hang out with people ( women) who are going to want to know all about us, I am going to have to put on the act of my life. anything I say will get back to him faster than anything.
the GNO is about 10 women going for dinner then to a strip club... all the guys are going to the car show and out for drinks... I asked him if we could meet up afterwards and got the ... uhh I don't know what time I will be home or where we are going for sure...." I am soooo getting dumped.
I laugh because I think why is he keeping me around, no sex since new years day and this whole thing, I think he just wants me to feed his cat when he does to HI. in may....
Like I said my head is just spinning... well another 4 years down the drain.... I am going through the "why did I let it get this far" stage.... of course I always s blame myself more than the other person when a relationship goes wrong.
Well the positive thing that came out of this is I got a huge part of my basement cleaned out....lol
I have to get thru this weekend.... then I have to cut the strings. I mean we are so involved in our real lives I am sure it wont be 100% , but the sex part ( which shouldn't be hard to do since he hasn't wanted to, he hasn't asked) and not take him out with my friends as much anymore....
I am not getting any younger here folks....
xoxox
Molly
ps. the minute I posted this blog, he sent me a text... I love you....OMG I just delet4ed it....
Don't say it if you don't mean it.
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Big Change
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Posted:Feb 16, 2014 6:16 am
Last Updated:May 17, 2024 8:33 am
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He wants to move to Buffalo i don't have lots of time. To write, but last wwe he mentioed that he wants to move back to Buffalo, where he is from in the 3 year plan...
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Big Change
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Posted:Feb 16, 2014 6:15 am
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He wants to move to Buffalo i don't have lots of time. To write, but last wwe he mentioed that he wants to move back to Buffalo, where he is from in the 3 year plan...
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New Year 2014
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Posted:Jan 9, 2014 5:46 pm
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My new years eve and new years day were THE BEST EVER. I start out by working as my company does inventory the last day of the year- So at 6am I picked up donuts for everyone on my way in and started work at 7. Inventory was going great and we were over half way done when I went to pick up the pizza for lunch, the auditor came and was gone with in an hour because we were right on track with everything. I was able to leave just about 2:00. I was done at 1:00 but the boss wanted me to stay until the reports started printing form the corporate office.
I went to the store and got a bottle of wine and shampoo because I forgot to pack it in my bag....
Ok ...ok ... let me back up a little bit, I have been planning this new years eve for over a month. I arranged it so that I could be out all night and all morning with no questions asked.... ( trust me it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be) First off Wisconsin got a ton of snow on new years eve, it started around 4:00/4:30 and was soft white and beautiful.
I had paid for a hotel room with bonus money I got from work. I have to laugh every time I say that it was a room at the Holiday Inn, because it makes me think of the Tom Hanks movie Sleepless in Seattle, when he tells his he is going off to the Holiday Inn to get laid...
Anyway...I was able to check in at 3:00 and believe you me I was there at 2:59... King size bed and no one to disturb "us"...
So "C" had to work as well, hoping he would get done around the same time , but I waited and watched a movie and just enjoyed the calm before the party. The plan was that I was going to pick him up and he was leaving his car for his ... but with the snow storm he didn't want his driving and the fact that when he got home, there were no ... so he called them and said he was taking the car. Now this is a good place to tell you that "C" told his oldest ( 21 years old) that he was going to be gone all night... this is important later....
So he gets to the hotel and the plan was that we were dressing up and going to dinner, then listen to a bad and drink and enjoy just the 2 of us , none of my friends, none of his friends.
I have never seen him dressed up in person before, only in photos and those were some time ago, but he didn't disappoint me at all, he wore the new blue shirt and tie I had given him for his birthday. and a suit and he looked so hot, I mean I fell in love with him all over again as soon as I saw him. I wore a blue and black wrap dress with black heels.
Before we left for dinner we exchanged our Christmas gifts, I gave him exactly what he asked for new kaki pants and 2 new polo shirts for him to wear to he full time job at the hospital and a frame with a photo of him and I in, it was taken during the Harley 110th and I looked hot so it was an easy choice...lol
I had not told him what I REALLY wanted " something sexy to wear" I just kept saying he could get me what ever he wanted... Well he didn't disappoint me at all out came the Victoria Secret Bag with 2 boxes in it... inside were a black teddy type slip with a cap sleeve cover up that matched. it was the perfect size and I loved it.
We then headed to Dinner to a place I had made the reservation at. A place that neither of us have ever been, I wanted the year to end with something new and different not the same ol, same ol. And that was exactly how it was. We looked just like a real couple, we sat and ate dinner and it was the most comfortable I had been in such a long time...It felt perfect, then the bill came... Like I said I had planned this entire evening out and saved up so much money I wanted to treat him to everything, but he wouldn't let me... He ended up buying dinner and all the drinks for the evening.
But I still did get the room and the tickets to the Nye party... so I guess I will live...lol
So after dinner we walked over to the other side of the restaurant to the bar area. We found 2 seats and bellied up to the bar.. we talked for a while and just watched the people arrive, drank and just plain had a great time. The band started and they were pretty good. I wanted to dance but they really didn't play any slow songs. And with out my "girls" around I wasn't about to go it alone... so we drank and talked until midnight, we tooted our horns and shook our noise makers, drank our champagne and kissed.
We headed in line for the midnight buffet, ate more food, I though I was going to burst I was still full from dinner...
At 12:30 we headed out, the hotel was on the same road as the restaurant so it was only a 5 minute ride but with all the snow the roads were very slippery. It took us almost 15 minutes to get back. He dropped me off at the door as there had to have been 7 inches of snow and in my heels I was very thankful. I went to the room and started to get undressed and was so excited to try on my Christmas gift.
"C" arrived in the room while I was still in the bathroom doing a few last minute touch ups... and when I walked out he was already in the bed, we just held each other for a while , I truly thin we were both just to full and tired ( we both were up and at 5:30 am) But not to worry the evening took off exactly as it should have.
By 3 o am we were both just spent, off to sleep we went and this was our first time officially spending the night together. ... at about 5am I had to pee so bad, so I got up as quietly as I could and looked in the bathroom mirror and thought OMG I look like I just got out of bed, so I fixed up a little and back to bed I went. I crawled back under the covers and "C" spooned me and it was time for round 2.
We click so well while making love.... but I did notice one thing, He ( in the past) was able to make me squirt but so far nothing this encounter. But is was great anyway...looking back on it now I think it was totally me ( I was so tired)...session 2 was a nice quickie. and back to sleep we went.
"C" woke up at 7o am and wanted to know how long I was staying at the hotel. I didn't say then but check out was not until noon and I paid for a late check out of 2:00 so I was in no hurry, but I could tell something was up... He said he always made breakfast for his boys on New Years Morning.... oh , oh, oh, ok.... well then I guess he was going to leave, He asked me to join them, well ok then. so we both goy up , took showers backed up everything and were loading up our cars and headed back to his house by 9:00 am.
When we arrived at his house , there was his 3 boys and 3 of their friend so 3 boys from 16 to 21 years of age and his middle boy starts in where were you ALL night... we didn't know you were going to be gone ALL night..."C" just joked around with them a little and never really answered their question... and he started to make breakfast. eggs , sausage, cinnamon rolls, toast, Oj, hot chocolate.. the whole works. I watched him and he wouldn't let me help at all.
since I was the only girl and the talk of 16 and 17 year old boys was very punchy, none of them had slept yet...I decided I should get home as to not push my luck. But it turns out I got home around 11:00 am and everyone was still sleeping... I walked in the house and was greeted with " I thought you would be home much later".... lesson learn....
Happy 2014 everyone...
Next post will be about the Hubby and "C" and the 2 family's spending a Sunday afternoon together watching the last Packer Game and the up coming outing where we all are going to a Hockey game later this month...
xoxoxo
Molly
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This is getting hard
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Posted:Nov 19, 2013 5:27 pm
Last Updated:Dec 14, 2013 3:23 am
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Hello Blog,
So much to say much not enough time... so short version now and more later.....
Birthday dinner with "C" was a bust... his 2 boys came along with us on our dinner for two...lol all is well I did say I need to get to know them more...
His oldest who moved back home in Sept, has been accepted into the air force. but since he is has been home the sex has stopped.. not cum to a crawl or slowed down it has completely stopped.
"C" has tried very hard to make up for the none sex- he has taken me out for dinner and movies and everything to give us some alone time...
This Friday we are going to hockey game with some of his military friends... so we will see, he is being kind of secretive about the evening... I wonder if there is more in the works than I know.
Next thing I met up with my "teacher" friend... He is so sweet and shy and its always exciting seeing him. dressed up for him and it was a short time together, I think a next session is in our future.
I am so glad the holiday s are here- I am so ready for the time off- as I didn't use a lot of my sick days during the year I have to use them up in December or loos them. Hoping to get lots of shopping done and other stuff ( wink...wink)
So what do I want for Christmas.... My dream present would be sexy clothes and shoes.... but I would also love a spa day... how bout you what do you want ?
I hope to write more later.... Have lots of thoughts, but no time now
XOXOXOXO
Molly
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