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Blogs > oneladybrijit > For What It's Worth!

Inspired to add something. . .  

oneladybrijit 66F
298 posts
2/10/2012 12:10 am
Inspired to add something. . .

I just caught up with the blog of another, and I am so inspired that it's time for me to add something new here.

I have been doing really well in my time away from here. I have done things that will make a difference in my day to day life, acquiring a large number of garments that not only fit me, but suit me as well, and are my taste. Amongst them, there are a few that are not me, so I will have to find new homes for them. However the bulk are garments that I really love. I have to do the smallest amount of mending and alterations to make a few right for me, as my waist is a touch smaller than the waist on them. It will be easy as soon as I get back into it.

The other day, I went out to the back fence again, and did what was needed to restore it's previous upright stance. I am really happy with the results. For the first time, I just didn't have what it takes to do the job myself, and asked a touch of help from a passer by. It was really good, and now the job is done, properly, and my fence just looks the best to me.

I also replaced some washing line that needed replacing the other day, and have spent some time improving the fish pond.

Now why would anyone end up teary eyed after all that? I have no idea, only the last two days, I have felt amazingly teary eyed. I miss those who were contacting me here. They are all absent at present, and won't be back for a few weeks. I just want to cry over the precious friend I lost, as he was my rock, and I know that the best thing I can do is stay away, never go back, unless he fixes things a correct way; and that is the hardest thing to do, as I remember the good times, and manage to conveniently forget the bad things. Only if I were to go back, I would leave myself open to more abuse. For once in my life, (not really once, just once again,) I really need to stay away, indefinitely. That is so hard! So I have ended up teary eyed, only the rest of me is fine.

I love the way I have laughed like I used to, smiled like I used to. It's great. I am coming back, more together than I have been for a long time. I just need to bring the other parts of me back, the bits that can do almost anything, achieve things around home, not just one or two things, everything that needs doing, and get housework done as well. That lady is still sadly absent.

I am working on it, and I know that I have to really take things slowly, working on just enjoying. That's the hardest part, just enjoying and not pressuring myself. So many others have put so much pressure on me at different times, that it's really hard to know how not to be broken anymore, really hard.

I am still working on it.

I do hope you are finding things that make your life feel worth it.
oneladybrijit 66F
420 posts
2/12/2012 10:53 pm

 Thank you Z.


_JKH_ 70M
5448 posts
2/16/2012 6:50 pm

 Keep on smiling.
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oneladybrijit 66F
420 posts
2/17/2012 3:39 pm

 Thank you J. I am about to add another sad blog, only I need to. I did wake up in the wrong emotional place this morning.


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